Ice Cavern Studios

Sigh, tonight was long. Or at least, that's how it feels. Of course, I was at my friends place for six hours. Although that's really not what makes it seem so long. It was just the last couple of hours that seemed long. Just about the time Thais's boyfriend, Rabi, showed up.

See, before Rabi got there, Thais and I were chilling with our friends Chris and Melinda; and Igor and Shannon. This was cool because I didn't feel a puppy following along with a bunch of couples. And that was alright. It was even cool when some friends of Chris's who just got engaged showed up.

But then Rabi showed up, and the night suddenly seemed long. Not that I wasn't having a good time, I just feel very alone and isolated. Before he showed up, I had a wingman. I wasn't the only one not with my significant other. I wasn't the odd person out. But once I was, I just felt very awkward.

It really sucks being the only person in long distance relationship in my group of friends. It sucks because I see all the cute happy couples, and I start off just being really sarcastic and bitter. And by the end of the night, I just end up feeling alone and depressed. The worst part is that they are so happy and into their relationship, they aren't even cognizant that it just kind of hurts me.

And hanging out with single people isn't much of a help, either. Because single people, or at least the ones I know, are trying to get into relationships. They're all about chasing tail, which I'm not into at all. I'm not interested in playing games, I'm not interested in all of the parading and all of the crap. I've already done that.

It's just…crappy. Although I do have some friends who are recently married, who seem to have a very good understanding of my situation. They invite me out to do stuff, but they actively refrain from acting cute and couply (yes that is a word because I say it is) around me. I really need to tell them how much I appreciate this. I know that they're newly married. And it's their right to be all cute and stuff. Yet they hold off because they know it's hard on me.

Hmmm…I think I'll tell them. We're seeing a movie tomorrow. Yeah, I'll definitely let them know.

Life and Times

Please excuse the randomness of this post, but I have a bunch of random things to update on and so It's just going to be one of those entries. If things seem to just bounce around, it's because that's what's happening in my head.

First, Nicole. Simply put, she's out of the country for the next two weeks. I'm going to miss being able to easily get a hold of her, but that's life. I'm a big boy, I can go for a couple of weeks without hearing from her. I'm happy she gets to see a beautiful part of the world, and I pray for her safety. I'm saying this now partially as a reminder of what my state of mind is now. We'll see if I'm this rational in two weeks.

The website revamp is actually going a lot smoother than I orginally thought it would. A lot of my code was only sending warnings, so the cleanup work isn't quite so nasty. I'm still a far ways away from being able to work on the layout, graphics, and color scheme, but at least my site is now entirely valid. Well, except for the personalites page. That'll never validate, but then again, I don't control all of the code that is used. Scratch that, I do. I'm just being lazy and don't want to make it validate.

I'm going to be adding a new section or two to the site. One of which is going to be a “rants” section. Basically, there will be two weblogs on the site. This one, with all of it's current entries (many of which I hope to go back and fix), will serve as my personal diary of life. A web-log if you will. The other is going to be my rant space for the many geeky and non-geeky things I want to muse about. I've decided it doesn't make any sense to have two blog sites. Or at least, I don't feel like trying to write another one when this one needs some serious updating.

Health wise, I'm doing pretty well. My knee is bothering me again, so I've decided to face the music and see a doctor. My insurance will cover physical therapy, so it's time I took advantage of it. I want to be able to ski this coming season, and that will require healthy knees. Everything else is pretty healthy.

My general life is going pretty smoothly. Greg, Cherba, and Justin are all coming out at the end of June, and H and I are already planning to scope out some houses to rent. Dan is looking for a place of his own, so we only have to find homes for 5 guys. There are a bunch of leads, one of which looks really good. It's a bit further from everything, but that's the price you have to pay to live with friends in a tight pad.

Ok, yeah, I think that's everything. I need to sleep. I haven't been staying up this late for a while, and I really don't want to start. Oh shoot, I need to drive tomorrow since I'm running out of cereal at work. Drat. I much prefer walking to work. *shrugs* Such is life, I guess.

Life and Times

So I've already gotten back into the swing of things. Work is going as it should. Things aren't too heavy yet, but that's ok, they should pick up this week. Already back to partying. Already back to climbing and lifting. Pretty much back to the way things were.

Well, mostly. I've been making a few changes since I got back. Mostly lifestyle changes. It's nothing bad, just different. I'm going to bed earlier. A lot earlier. I'm getting up earlier. I'm trying to keep my room neater. I'm not dealing well with mess as much as I used to. I'm just kind of trying to settle things down into a healthy routine.

I've also begun work on revamping this site. As an online CV, it's really lacking in terms of what it needs to be. This site doesn't validate, it doesn't use CSS. And it's just generally a bit dated. A lot of people like the site, but I just feel it's time for a change. Right now, I'm going through and cleaning up all of the code, as well as removing the visual elements. Since I plan on laying things out with CSS, I don't need all the formatting markup in my code. So yeah. I have a test server setup, and eventually, I'll send the link to people for feedback. but for now, the site just isn't ready to be shown.

Alright, that's enough of that. Time for sleep.

Life and Times

So I think it's about that time. This site, which serves as both my online CV and my personal blog needs an overhaul. So, don't be surprised if things are up and down for a while. I'm going to be making some major changes in the upcoming months.

Life and Times