So I Saw the New Star Wars
So I saw the new Star Wars movie and it's left me kind of…deflated. I mean, this was supposed to be like a major geek moment. It's the last Star Wars. It's supposed to be awesome. I'm supposed to want to go out and see it over and over again. I'm supposed to just completely geek out. I mean, I love Star Wars. But yet, this one has just left me so…nyah.
I think it has to do with the anticipation, or lack there of. I think the previous two Star Wars movies left me so defeated that I watched the latest installment as one watches an impending train wreck. You know it's going to be ugly, but you can't turn away. Because I didn't want to see a series I have enjoyed so run further into the ground by it's creator, I just didn't get excited about this. Before, I would have jumped to see Star Wars as early as possible. Now, I only saw it on opening day because my group at work rented out a theater.
It's weird. Maybe I'm growing up. Or maybe I'm disallusioned. You never want to watch something you love be soiled. Nor do you want to miss seeing it end. It's a real damned if you do, damned if you don't situation.
Ultimatly, I feel like much less of a geek about this whole thing. I feel like I'm supposed to be excited. I'm supposed to be pumped about this. Instead I'm not. I'm more excited about the Concert and Party I'm going to on Saturday. I'm much more excited about seeing Nicole. Hell, I'm more excited about working at Sakura-Con 2006 than I am about this whole thing.
I just feel like I'm missing out on a communal geek experience. This joy of one of the geekiest movie series of all time, and I just can't muster it up.
Sigh…oh well. Hopefully I'll find something soon to restore my geekness. Until then, I just have to go around being a little less of a geek.
