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I am in fact alive. Reunions is awesome. I'm loving it. My knee is bothering me, so I'm ending my reunions a littler earlier than I expected. But otherwise, life is good.

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Ok, I need to give up the pretense that I will have any kind of weekend whenever the PSSO has a concert. Between the post-dress rehearsal gathering at the Shen's, the concert, and the post-concert party at the Shen's, I basically lost my weekend.

Where did it go? A large portion was lost passed out on the shen's futon. Now, it's not because I've been drinking so much that I've passed out. It's because I've been there till 5:15 and 6:15 in the morning doing stuff. At that point, I'm just too tired to try and drive home. Which means that I'm having a really good time AND being responsible enough to not try and drive home. Go me!!

But yeah, because I keep going to bed so late, I have to sleep till like 1 in the afternoon. This just kills the rest of the day, because I'm still tired. So I end up napping. Yeah, this weekend was lost.

Well, the day part was. Last night was off the chain. The party was crazy, and I loved every minute of it. Oh yeah, and the concert was pretty good too.

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So I saw the new Star Wars movie and it's left me kind of…deflated. I mean, this was supposed to be like a major geek moment. It's the last Star Wars. It's supposed to be awesome. I'm supposed to want to go out and see it over and over again. I'm supposed to just completely geek out. I mean, I love Star Wars. But yet, this one has just left me so…nyah.

I think it has to do with the anticipation, or lack there of. I think the previous two Star Wars movies left me so defeated that I watched the latest installment as one watches an impending train wreck. You know it's going to be ugly, but you can't turn away. Because I didn't want to see a series I have enjoyed so run further into the ground by it's creator, I just didn't get excited about this. Before, I would have jumped to see Star Wars as early as possible. Now, I only saw it on opening day because my group at work rented out a theater.

It's weird. Maybe I'm growing up. Or maybe I'm disallusioned. You never want to watch something you love be soiled. Nor do you want to miss seeing it end. It's a real damned if you do, damned if you don't situation.

Ultimatly, I feel like much less of a geek about this whole thing. I feel like I'm supposed to be excited. I'm supposed to be pumped about this. Instead I'm not. I'm more excited about the Concert and Party I'm going to on Saturday. I'm much more excited about seeing Nicole. Hell, I'm more excited about working at Sakura-Con 2006 than I am about this whole thing.

I just feel like I'm missing out on a communal geek experience. This joy of one of the geekiest movie series of all time, and I just can't muster it up.

Sigh…oh well. Hopefully I'll find something soon to restore my geekness. Until then, I just have to go around being a little less of a geek.

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I was watching MTV while waiting for my NyQuil to kick in and I managed to catch their I Want a Famous Face program. This is a rather scary show. This is mainly because the self image issues that these people have are some of the very same ones I've fought for a long time. It's scary to think what can happen if one's own insecurities go unchecked.

I've seen this show a couple of times, and every time I do, I just can't seem to get it. People are willing to go through intense pain to change the way they look. And half the time, the gains aren't even that great. I can barely tell that any work was done. It's more like a really expensive placebo. The reason people seem more attractive is they are more confident.

I've found that confidence is what really makes people more attractive. I've known people who can seem totally unattractive one day, only to seem incredibly hot the next, and the only change they made was in their attitude. Bright, confident people are always sexy. It's just kind of how it goes.

One of the things that I can take pride in is knowing that I reacted differently to my own self image issues compared to these people. Instead of trying to resort to quick fix surgeries, I chose to work out. To naturally improve the way I look. I have earned the way I look now. I continue to work for it, but I can take great pride in that. It's not easy, and there are times I wish I didn't have to. But I can't. I can't stop because I know what will happen not only to my body, but my self image and confidence. This provides me with a lot of motivation for working out. It's how I maintain my drive. The thought of going back to that mental state is enough to keep me in the gym. I'm much happier where I am now. It's a much better place. It's just not an easy place to stay.

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I want it back. Thank you. Sigh…After so many good days, I just want to nap. Hmmm…nap.

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