Finally, some direction
I was going to write about Sakura-con, but that's not really on my mind, at the moment. Instead, Nicole has finally decided on where she's going to grad school. I'm very proud to announce that she will be going to MIT for grad school. Congrats, dear.
Surprisingly, I'm not really upset about this. The next 18-24 months are going be long, but after that, it's not so bad. If we stay together, I'll be leaving Washington, which is both sad and not.
On one hand, I have my life here. I'm making excellent money. I'm working at the top company in my field. I have awesome friends, my roommates are incredible. Life is pretty good.
On the other hand, my family, a lot of my very close friends, and Nicole are all over 2000 miles away. This sucks. Boston is a lot closer to all of them. It's just 2000 miles away from the biggest names in my field.
But I was raised to believe there should be an order to priorities.
- God
- Family
- Work
- Friends
And if something happens to a close friend, and they need your help, then work can be pushed down further. For me, Nicole falls in just after family. So it's not really a hard decision for me.
I've always figured God would lead me where I need to go. He hasn't let me down yet, and I don't see Him starting. Maybe I'm only supposed to be here for a short time. Maybe Nicole and I aren't meant to be. Maybe we are, and I'm needed in Boston. I really don't know. I can't predict the future.
All I know, is that I've found someone very special to me. And she has the opportunity of a life-time. And it's in Boston.
Some would say I have a choice. Some would say, “She doesn't value you over her career. You aren't important enough to her.” But the thing is, I told her to go where she would be happy. I told her to make the decision as if I wasn't here. Sure, my life my have wrapped up quite nicely had she come to UW, but she'd always have to ask herself, “what if.” So she made her choice.
And I've made mine.
At this point, I shouldn't have to say how I feel about her. It should be apparent. I'm incredibly proud. I'm dating someone at MIT. She's beautiful. She's smart. She is generous and kind in ways I can't describe. And she loves me.
So I have to wait a little longer. And It'll be hard. But as Dad always told me: nothing worth having, or doing, is ever easy. At least now, I have an idea of where she and I are going.

