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Weekend?

October 30th, 2004

Hehehe….hoooo….yeah. Um. So normally I would be all like, YEAH WEEKEND!! But right now, I'm not really feeling it. I'm going in this weekend to make up for work. Plus I want to get ahead for this coming week. Yup, going to be a relaxing weekend. And by relaxing, I mean busy.

Normally, I wouldn't feel as much pressure, but I want to have a good deal of work done before I head to Indiana on Thursday night. If I get things taken care of now, I can have a nice weekend in a week. I just have to get there.

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The One Left Behind

October 28th, 2004

Today had a kind of sad overtone to it. I took Nicole to SeaTac so she could make her 12:55 flight to Newark. Even though work is going well, and I had a good dinner with people from Princeton, it just made everything seem kind of…blah.

Nicole and I talked tonight about the feeling of watching a loved one leave. It's very disheartening. While the person who leaves has arriving home to look forward to; plus a plane flight. Meanwhile, the one staying has to go back to everything as normal. Unfortunatly, it's not quite normal. Instead, things just seem a bit empty.

Today was no different. I came home today, not to find the radiant face of Nicole, but to an empty apartment. Looking around, I see where Nicole had been for four days, but she's not here. Nicole has been gone for only twelve hours, and I already miss her.

Sigh…It's time for bed. Night all.

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*Smiles*

October 21st, 2004

Insomnia generally annoys the hell out of me. I mean, Staying up because you aren't really tired; never fun. At the same time, I can't help but recognize the irony of being up this late. It was a year ago today, that Nicole and I finally got together after a very late night (read: around 3 AM) of talking.

Today is officially Nicole and Mine's one year anniversary. Well, at least as officially as we can attempt to recognize. Since it happened late at night, it's hard to place the exact time, but that really isn't what is important. What is important is that we've been together for a year. We're happy, and we love each other. I don't think there's much more that needs to be said.

I tend to get very sentimental on big days. It's led to a whole mess of “Look how far I've come” posts. This isn't going to be one of them. I just don't feel it right. Instead, I'm going to keep things short and to the point:


Nicole, this past year has been the best of my life. Thank you for everything. For your kindness, your support, and your love. Happy anniversary, sweetheart. Here's to another wonderful year together. I love you.

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Slow Days

October 20th, 2004

I really don't have all that much to say tonight. Things have been pretty chill here in the pacific northwest. Work is going well, and life is good.

I've started work on my other blog (finally), and I'm relearning a bunch of the C# stuff that I had previously forgotten. I also found out that my version of Visual Studio is not up to date, so a lot of the stuff I remember from last summer wasn't valid with my tools. Thankfully I can upgrade to the latest .Net stuff and get going forward again.

In other news, Nicole will be coming out on Friday. I'm really excited about this. The amount of time between when we last saw each other was not all that long ago, it seems like it. Probably because of the slowdown at work. But that's ending, so, no real worries there.

Alright, I'm gonna go to bed. Sleep is good. I need it for tomorrow. Later.

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Why Am I Watching this Again?

October 14th, 2004

I'm currently trying to figure out why I even bother with the debates. I've watched two of the three and so far, it's the same damn thing. At this point, it's hard to really root for either canidate. I know who I'm going to vote for, but as I think about it, I don't like either canidate. In fact, as I watch these debates, I am actually losing respect for these canidates.

Bah! This is gross. This is absolutely hidious. There is nothing being said here that is of any real value. I've seen high school debates that were better than this. Both sides pull stuff out of their hind regions. Apperently both Senator Kerry and President Bush have some kind of trillion fetish. Every number was X Trillion. It's just too much.

I should be watching and paying more attention right now. But I can't bring myself to do it. Neither person is saying anything of merit. They are talking at each other and the American public. Yet nothing is being said. I'd actually compare this to a talk given by a marketing director. Lot's of political buzzwords; very little content.

They did bring up a topic that is very interesting to me. Namely that of discrimination. Senator Kerry brought it up as if it was the fault of the government. That I found to be a bit…iggg. Discrimination is something that is just kind of going to exist. It's not that it's good, I'm not happy aout it, I'm not even just letting it slide. But come on, don't blame something that is passed down from generation to generation on the government.

Hell, it's the government that protects such hatred. The same amendment that lets me write this blog is the same amendment that gives people the right to scream at the top of their lungs about how “some nigger” (read me) took their spot at Princeton. As long as we are guaranteed the freedoms to speak as we see fit, assemble together, and raise children in a way we feel is right, then hatred and discrimination will survive. So unless the government suddenly decides to start restricting our freedoms in the constitution, there's no point in pointing fingers at any political party for the situation.

Speaking of bigotry, the local storyline at General Protection Fault hits a bit close to home. No, I am not implying anything about Nicole's father. It's more of just a general fear. It's the fear that one day, I'm going to want to marry a woman, and her father will take issue with me being black. It's not something I think about often, but every once in a while, I wonder about it. I mean, it's bad enough having to worry about whether he'll like you based on your personality, but it's another thing to hope he can see past something as superficial as your skin.

I like to believe that in this day and age, people of changed, but I have already had one girl tell me her father went apeshit when he found out we were going on a date. Of course, he liked me when we were just friends and I was fixing his stereo equipment. Being black wasn't an issue, but when we go out on a date, suddenly being black was an issue with him. (I know it was that, she told me later) It's funny how one incident can have such an impact.

Of course, talking about this makes me think about Nicole's father. As it stands, I like my relationship with Mr. DiLello. He's the first father who, upon finding out I was dating his daughter, didn't treat me like crap. He actually wanted to get to know me. I have never felt like Mr. DiLello was out to embarrass me or make me look stupid. Instead, he makes me feel comfortable. He doesn't have to do that, nor did he have to let me tag along when he and Mrs. DiLello came down to Princeton. But he did, and that really means a lot to me.

So yeah…been a fun night. It's interesting how my thoughts flow sometimes. I will definetly say I didn't plan on talking about Nicole's dad, but…eh…makes sense. Anyway, I think I'm going to head to bed. I want to get up and work tomorrow…or maybe not. We'll see tomorrow.

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